For me, my Fight Mode is this fire that burns inside, and knows that I can do anything, overcome anything, and create anything I desire.
I’ve never been very competitive; I don’t care if I’m faster than the person next to me, or if I win the game. But internally, I LOVE watching myself grow, and challenging myself to the next level. I love experiencing this growth because I know it has no limits.
And I remembered my fight mode today.
It’s not something I’ve been using as much lately. But there was something in my yoga class today that reminded me of it and lit it back up.
This was a particularly challenging class, and my teacher had said something along the lines of, “What do you need to tell yourself?”
In that moment I remembered the place I was at when I started going to yoga – I was still struggling so much, mentally and emotionally at that time. I remembered how when I started, it was a way for me to challenge my mind, through challenging my body. (Btw, I didn’t know that would be the case when I started. I just wanted to move my body!)
I would be in a pose, so uncomfortable, shaking even, holding a position until it felt like I couldn’t.
And I would tell myself, “I want this. I can do this. I want it to be hard!”
I moved towards the pain and discomfort, not away from it.
So in that moment – in that uncomfortable pose, feeling the pain – I told myself, “Yes!” and “I got this. I WANT this!”
And it wasn’t just in yoga that I used this fire and fought for myself and what I knew was possible (no matter what feelings or other thoughts came up).
Throughout my recovery, I began to realize that this was not going to be easy. It wasn’t gonna be some cake walk and just instantly I was all done with it. I realized that, in fact, I had to embrace how hard it was. It was the only way.
I would tell myself, “No one is going to do this for you, Angie…” And then I would move towards the pain. I would bring to mind the very thing that scared me, or made me feel uncomfortable. And I would look at it, and not try to “fix” it or change it. I would feel everything that came up, and just be with myself, in those feelings.
I became my own source of support. I had a support system around me as well, of a few that I trusted for extra guidance, accountability, and help. But ultimately, I knew it was up to me. I was the only one that could do the work for me.
The thing is, we can literally create anything we want in our life. Anything.
Because I refused to believe that I would “manage” OCD for the rest of my life, I found evidence that proved my belief true (as we always will when it comes to beliefs we have. We’ll find evidence.) – I found examples that full recovery is possible. And beyond that, that living an AMAZING life of your dreams (and more) is possible too.
Our ability to manifest quickly is actually within us and very strong, once blocks are removed.
I’ve seen it with my own eyes.
So I found these examples, and I held those as my vision. That was my focus. And where I couldn’t find examples for the life I wanted to create, I created the vision myself. Albert Einstein said, “Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.”
You have to find a way to see it, whether real or imaginary.
So I would read those stories, I would speak to mentors and coaches who were living the qualities and values of the life my soul desired. I would write it out. I would speak it.
More and more I see and believe how limitless our potential is. It’s only as limited as we allow it to be in our mind. In fact, the actions of actually doing the things to create what you want, I believe, are the easy part. It’s the getting all the parts of you to align to it (so that it can be reality) that will really challenge you most.
I’m so glad I was reminded of my fight mode. It’s interesting because although I love this fire, it was a way for me to take care of myself that I haven’t needed as much right now. And it’s not that I haven’t wanted to use it. In all honesty, I found it hard to access for awhile. I knew it was there, but I was also experiencing so much growth in service and in purpose, that my energy was and is flowing through me and outward.
You see, when you find and follow your purpose, it delivers to you everything you need in order to grow into the person who can live that out…
And what I needed was to risk forward and to be in action, even more than I needed to go inside. My energy was flowing through me and out of me in that way.
In finding my fight mode again, I’m remembering the fire that allows me to never give up on myself.
We are 100% responsible for our lives. And we CREATE our reality. It is up to us. You can do, be, and have anything you want if you align yourself to it and the possibility and truth within it.
Even if what you’re wanting is taking longer than you want it to, or even if many parts of you believe it’s not possible… Decide that it is. Find the vision or essence or some part of what it is that you want, and focus on that.
ANYTHING is possible.
Fight for it. Fight for yourself. Do the work. Find the support.
What would you have to believe in order for that next dream to be true for you?
And then watch as the magic and miracles roll in.